When is it my turn?

i am so tired of medications, doctor's appointments, being jealous of other people, and staring at little kids wondering "why them and not me?" its frustrating and heartbreaking for both, myself and my husband. my cycles start out looking great, but never seem to create the desired result. sometimes i just want to quit... not have kids, focus on finishing school, going to law school and working crazy hours at a law firm and not having time to think about what my life would like as a mom. but, both of us know that if we don't follow through with the fertility treatments there will always be that nagging "what if" in the back of our minds.