Reader Question: What's Harder Trying to Conceive and Fertility Treatments OR Foster Care? (Part I)

Reader Question: 

What's Harder....

Trying to Conceive and Fertility Treatments

OR

Foster Care?

Well, that is a tough one to answer.

So let me open this up to my Readers... What are your thoughts, questions, answers?  And then I will share mine.

Seriously?

Well, I had some spotting yesterday afternoon... Perfect.. Spotting at 9dpo according to the OV Watch. UMMM.. NOPE. AF (Aunt Flow, my period, the Witch) arrived for her very regular monthly visit. So, either my LP is totally out of whack (which I seriously doubt) or the OV Watch was absolutely wrong about my O date. I'd love to share the disgusting details of what AF consists of... but I spare you the visual. The last time I had an AF like this, the OB/GYN stated that it sounded like a pregnancy lining and then she made me take a pregnancy test (it was negative). I figure that if AF is seriously short (like I don't have any spotting tomorrow) then I'll test on Sunday and see what happens. Most likely the watch was off and I O'd earlier than what it predicted.

Oh well.. onto another cycle.. and then onto adoption. Just one step at a time.. one small step at a time.. taking deep breaths along the way. Its the only to make it through this life.

Ah Ha...

She's here... I started spotting yesterday afternoon. And woke up with a full blown new cycle. There is always that part of me that wishes she wouldn't come and then there is the realistic side knows she will... eventually she'll show up... it seems as though it never fails. After 1 cycle of Clomid, 3 Natural IUI cycles, 2 medicated IUI cycles, 1 Fresh IVF cycle and 1 Frozen IVF cycle... I know she'll come. It's disheartening to say the least, but as I said before, at least time we are the road to adoption... so even if I do get my period every cycle from here till menopause... I'll still be a mom.

So here is to the first night with my new sleeping companion, The OV Watch. I let you know how it goes tomorrow. And I post a pic of my Fertility Friend Chart and the watch (oh FF updated their system to include the watch as an ovulation monitor - how sweet is that?).

Have a wonderful Saturday!!

So what.. I'm a wee bit CrAzY

Yes, I am a "wee bit" crazy... I am really excited to start using the OV Watch (you wear it to bed and it tells you when your 6 most fertile days are.. no more peeing on sticks and trying to figure out if the stupid lines are the same color)... but I have to wait for this cycle to end. Normally my cycle averages about 25 days...

Well, here I am anxiously awaiting the start of my cycle and yet Mother Nature is NO WHERE to be found. Why is it that when you want that witch to come she always, always shows up late... or when you're wearing white?

I also know that we are in the process of the adoption thing but that could ..take years and considering that "everything is in good working order" other than the fact than the fact that I have a brick wall for a cervix because of the cervical stenosis (partial or total narrowing of the cervix, which can lead to obstruction)... so why not "try" while we are in the "waiting game". We figure it doesn't hurt to keep trying.. I just refuse to get back into the drama of it all. I am not going to worry about what my temps are doing, or what my cervical mucus looks like, or where my cervix is.. we'll just use the watch and have sex.. yes I used the "s" word. Oh and for those of you wondering.. No I will not pee on a stick! I am not taking a home pregnancy test.. especially considering that I have been known to have 35 day cycles every so often. I really do plan on relaxing this time round, because I know that if it doesn't happen, we are already working on the adoption.